anticipation

Grrrrr why do I have to go to work so freaking late?!!! That makes me mad, I feel like ive been there long enough I shouldnt have to work such late hours, I mean, let some of the school age kids work those shifts.....grrrrrrrrr


I cant wait for the weekend....even now, stressed as I am about the day, I have feelings of happiness....feelings I cannot put into words....alot of times I know what I want to say, my heart knows, but my head doesnt want to cooperate. Will it ever? I hope so.

Shawna is my dream come true, those few days I was with her, I felt so alive, and I love that feeling, I have never felt like that in my life....I want that feeling to last forever, I want her to feel like that....I just want to give her the world and show her how special she is to me, and give her the love and happiness she deserves.


I am sitting here waiting for time to go to work, the minutes and seconds slowly passing by....I am having a thought. What took me so long to write my thoughts? I cant even tell you the last time I did this....but....I want to more often, its like a therapy, theres no use for me to keep my thoughts locked inside my head, they need to be unlocked, and I feel I can do that by writing.